I post my art here occasionally, but I've never really ever written anything of substance on this "journal". I guess I already have enough places to post my thoughts, that this doesn't usually seem like the place to do it. But I figured this was a good place to say what I'm about to say.

Art is a wonderful thing. I love to create it, and I love sharing it. It's been my tool of expression and communication all my life, as long as I can remember. The problem is that I lack communication skills in most other ways. I can write, yes, but face to face with people I become the wall flower who sits in the corner and doodles. I find this to be a problem now that I'm trying to do art professionally. One of the major requirements in most artistic fields is to be able to communicate well with people, network, and make friends with the right people. I just don't know how to do that. My attempts usually leave me frustrated and feeling invisible. Even when I try to get noticed I just disappear.

This is such a frustrating thing, because it affects my confidence in my artwork, even if I know rationally that it should not. It's a dilemma that I'm not sure how to overcome. I guess all I can do is put forth my best effort and hope that at some point I figure out a way to make this "art" thing something I can feel proud of, and less like a "wannabe".